Personal Meditation No. 92

“The most rebellious action is taking ownership of your life.”

Embrace the Within.

You ever notice how many folks are attempting to tell you how to live your life? And the number never seems to decrease. There is an ever-expanding number of folks out there that know much better how you should live your life than you. And they won’t hesitate to find some way to make something a rule or a law just to impose their view of the world upon you.

The rules and the laws get sillier and sillier. They make less and less sense. The game of control becomes ludicrous and laughable. I find great humor in what America has become and where it is heading. I have to laugh at the whole absurdity of the whole thing.

Rebellion as an individual is where life got more interesting for me. While everyone is listening to their screens, listen to nature? Return to practices that make sense? Own your life?

That is what embracing my within, embracing your within is all about. Rebelling against conformity by taking ownership of your life. Being prepared and getting in control.

Ownership of your life sounds extremely simple but it is a process. Taking ownership means accepting that most of the problems in my life are totally my doing. I was in bad physical shape because I chose not to be healthy. I was in a position where I was dependent on others to feed me because I chose not to control my food source. I was in a position of weakness because I wasn’t worried about being strong. I was worried about the wrong things because I let those things occupy my headspace. I made all those decisions consciously or unconsciously. Either way, those were my choices. And that was my life.

Realizing that I was to blame and I was at fault for all my problems was a little difficult to process at first. I mean that’s a lot to handle when you’re already in a bad situation and concerned but I also wasn’t in a great position to make decisions to get myself out of the rut.

So, I had to start by making a plan to get things together. And I am not a patient person that thinks I can wait and work on a plan, however, I am still working that plan. I am pushing the limits of how fast I can get through the plan, but the plan is still in process.

I needed to get myself together first. And the best way for me was to focus on what I wanted was to work on expanding my self-sufficiency. Working outside on the garden and animals got me into the sun and into nature. Working outside got me hydrating and eating better. Working outside got me exercise and clarity. Working outside got me music and focus. I wasn’t giving up anything. I was gaining a new way of doing things. I was creating a new routine and a new life.

And here I am planning the next phase of expansion. Getting ready for year three and looking forward to where that path will lead. Yesterday, while I was walking back from collecting eggs, I thought how much further along I would be if I came to this realization five, ten, twenty years ago. If I would have started this process when I had just moved into the house? If I would have figured this all out sooner, where would I be now?

But, I truly can’t know. I truly can’t fathom that because I wasn’t ready to do this then. I am only ready to do this now. Worrying about those scenarios are pointless because that me wasn’t ready to become this me.

When it’s your time to change, when it’s your time to evolve, when it’s your time to take ownership, know that I am rooting for you. I know it isn’t easy. I know it takes its own time. I know that it’s your life to live. Just like it was mine too.

Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

#ThinkBetter #BeBetter #MyBodyMyChoice #MakeYourselfGreatAgain