Embrace the Within no. 22

“Ah! believe me, whatever we may say about the reckless, heedless multitude of mankind, those whom God blesses, and those whom God uses, cannot fall until the day’s work is done.”

• Edwin Paxton Hood

Yesterday was a physical struggle and today continues on that note. With my knee being a constant problem for mobility, I am having to rely on others to get things accomplished. And this is definitely not in alignment with my character. I will not ask for help. I will struggle and fight through the pain and problems to get things completed.

So, this injury is humbling. And I really think that is the purpose and lesson I am supposed to be working through over the next few days as I heal. I need to learn to trust in others. And that is a really difficult thing for me to do, even when it is my own people.

I am going to be receptive to the lesson and learn what I need to grow and continue on my journey. This may not be the way I want things to be, however, it is the way that things are. And no amount of worry or anger is ever going to change that. I can only pray and read as I walk the path ahead of me.

There is still work to be done and that work is not getting accomplished through my own stubbornness and determination. That work is now going to rely on compassion and cooperation. This weekend is going to be a chance for my family and I to work together out of the necessity of my limitations. And that process can only make us stronger as a whole. Rather than me working on things as an individual, I have to put trust and faith in them just as I easily put trust and faith in God.

I think one of the biggest problems I have experienced in the past is the limitation I have placed on the importance of others in my walk. I am not a huge fan of the folks that gather in churches because I have seen in the past how folks get turned away from their main focus of worship and end up worrying about baser things. BUT, I cannot let other people be a stumbling block in my walk with God. So, I have worked around that by attending a few different church buildings at different times. Now thinking that I might be limited in my ability to be among those folks this weekend is even starting to trouble me in spite of the fact that I started out just looking for an intimate study group and resigned myself to attending services.

The blessing has been that the places I have gone have not been packed with people. And the folks I have met over the past few months of working on my walk have been really beneficial in helping me dispel my fears of the folks at church. And, at this point, even if they were your typical church ladies with their bonnets tied too tightly I would still be going to church. I am never going to let other people stop me from attending church. So, just as with this lesson I am learning now, through all these struggles, obstacles, and challenges, I am continuing my walk and, hopefully, strengthening my relationship.

If I want any relationship to be stronger, I must share in what the other values. This weekend will be a journey in strengthening relationships with others as I humble myself to ask for help.

Peace to your home. Bless your being. The reign of God is now. Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

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