Personal Meditation no. 212

“Courage is choosing to change.”

Embrace the Within.

Folks talk a lot about change. There is a lot more talk about change than there is actual change in the world. There is superficial change that gives the appearance of difference BUT there is very little transformational change. This has been one of my complaints about the farce of government and politics and temporal power. The mask of power may change BUT the structure behind the mask remains the same. And you can concoct all sorts of theories and ideas about who is in control and who is pulling the strings in the world of men. You can get on the Interwebs and go down rabbit holes and talk about in echo chambers and point fingers and be the smartest person in the room because no one else has done the research you have done. And what is the point?

You see, I know those people. I was one of those people out there looking for the reason the world is such a mess. I was out there and right here preaching the gospel according to ed. I was pointing fingers and laying blame and looking to change the system. I was voting and active and political and struggling in futility to make folks see the truth. BUT I hadn’t found the truth yet. I was just as lost and blind as everyone else. I was struggling to fix something that doesn’t want to be fixed. I was struggling to change something that doesn’t need or want to change. I was looking for change where it wasn’t going to happen.

There is a courage in changing yourself. There is a courage in seeing the path of the world and standing up and saying that is not for me. There is a courage in looking for truth and unity and joy and abundance. BUT there is no wisdom or courage in looking to change things that are not going to change. And there a lot of things out there you and I cannot change. I don’t care how much we want to look to historical figures and say, “That so-and-so really changed that place into something better.” There is no power on our own to change anything in this world.

This world is already set on its course. You and I both know that things are not destined to get better. This is the last ditch efforts of a world that is broken trying to keep its brokenness alive. A broken world trying to prolong its time. And that time is not forever. That time is always close at hand to ending.

And that is why we need to change ourselves. There is no point in trying to change others, our community, our nation, our world, unless we are willing to change ourselves. There is a courage in choosing to look above and not below. There is a courage in choosing to embrace the eternal and set ourselves apart. There is a courage that is in taking the path of truth.

Or we can choose to tell ourselves comforting lies. There is never a shortage of comforting lies in the world to make us believe we are truly good people. There is never a shortage of comfort in knowing that there are plenty of folks that believe the same lies that we do. There is never a shortage of good intentions and excuses in the world. There is never a shortage of talk about change.

BUT there is a lack of change in our hearts, our minds, and our spirits. And that is a good place to start today. A place to change from looking to control everything else and simply take control of ourselves. Find our divine purpose and embrace the path that God has planned for us. You and I were not created to be less than. We were not created to make excuses. We were created to find the beauty and the abundance and the joy in this broken creation.

Bless your heart. Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

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Personal Meditation no. 211

“It’s not all in your mind but if you don’t control your mind, then the rest doesn’t matter.”

Embrace the Within.

I am not around social media that much anymore because I really don’t like what I see. I am not around people in my normal life anymore for much of the same reasons. I find myself easily frustrated with what I see as unexamined lives. Folks that are just accepting how things are and walking around repeating the words they are taught. So, I am turning to reading and studying on my own. Most of my interactions with folks turn out poorly because of me. I am still in a place where I need more joy and abundance and understanding in my own life. And I am working on that.

Until that time though, I think it is better to just type here and work on getting me right. I want to do right by people BUT I also want to do the right thing. And that is part of the problem I have been having recently. Call it a problem with reconciling my need to please people that I got instilled into me at a young age and my need to know and learn that was also part of me from that time as well. I don’t know. The more I walk down this journey of the past decade, then the more it seems like I am finding it even more difficult to get along with folks. I can’t seem to do right by people.

I don’t know exactly what is getting in my way from living in harmony with folks. BUT I am going to keep working on aligning myself and being in harmony with my journey first. That is one thing I can change and can work on improving. I don’t know if the second part, the harmony with folks, is ever going to get better. And that is nothing I am going to change. What I can change is accepting that I have no control over that aspect of my life. I have no control over how others react to me and my journey.

So, it is a lot easier for me to work the process of getting up and working on getting my entire system healthy. Mentally and physically, things are going much better. Only recently have I introduced my spiritual component of reading, prayer, and meditation of daily lessons from The Bible. I am taking the time to get this into my morning routine. I need my own harmony, my own change, my own joy, my own peace first. And I am not at peace right now. BUT it is something to work toward.

And if you don’t see much of me more than these blog posts, know that everything else is going great. This weekend I picked a salad mix from my garden of kale, spinach, lettuce, and broccoli sprouts. I am getting better at the whole tomato and pepper growing business. The three sisters' bed looks amazing. The peas and squash and beans are growing well. Egg production is normal. Haven’t been able to hatch a chick or deliver a rabbit yet BUT those are works in progress. The fruit and seed adventure is getting rather well in hand. Things are looking up around the garden.

So, if the only thing I feel that needs work is harmony, then I think I am doing well all things considered. I could be worried about all sorts of crazy things that folks are worried about. I could be thinking about elections and wars and prices and problems and solutions. BUT I am not. I am only worried about harmony. And I think that’s not a horrible place to be. I kind of like that I have another goal to work along in my journey. It means I am not done with my path. And as long as I have something to learn, something to change, something to work, then I have a meaning and a purpose to continue on this journey. When I feel stagnant and arrived and settled, then I will need to look for something else. So the struggle, the mess, the obstacles, are a thing that I embrace.

Bless your heart. Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

#ThinkBetter #BeBetter #NoGodsNoMasters #MyBodyMyChoice #MakeYourselfGreatAgain #EmbracetheWithin