Peace to Your House no. 15

“Smell the Friday!”

Embrace the Within.

I didn’t start this blog with anything more than the intention of documenting my journey over the past fourteen days. The path is all there in writing as I went from struggling with my physical and mental health through succeeding there and then struggling and working toward my spiritual health. I had very little idea where that path was going to lead or even what it was going to look like when it progressed. What I did know was that things had to change for me. I was tired of being unhealthy. I was struggling to carry bags of chicken feed. I was struggling to get moving in the morning. I was struggling with my mind and worry and fear and anger. I was struggling and I am still struggling. That doesn’t stop.

BUT today I struggle with better ways to plant and harvest crops. Today I struggle with whether I am doing enough physically, mentally, and spiritually. I struggle with the idea that this is the last Friday of July this summer and that means I will be going back to work in a few weeks. I struggle with figuring out how to reorganize my routine in the morning so that I can make it to work at my new time when I have all this reading and study I get done now. I still struggle BUT I can manage.

And here I am after these fourteen days and I am still moving forward. I didn’t see this as the palace I would be after three years. And I have no idea where I will be in another three. BUT I do know that I will keep moving forward with health. There are many things I no longer do that I once did. I do not miss these things as much as I would have thought when I laid them down. There is nothing that I can say that I do miss from those days of unhealthiness. I am happy with where this journey has led even though many others are not happy with my journey.

And that is also something that does not concern my journey. I just need to pray for those that believe I am their enemy. I have come to embrace the idea that there may be people I do not like BUT I do not have any enemies from my perspective. My battle is no longer against folks. Folks can do as they like.

Are you doing what makes you content?

Peace to your home. Bless your being. The reign of God is now. Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

#ThinkBetter #BeBetter #NoGodsNoMasters #MyNepheshMyChoice #MakeYourselfGreatAgain #EmbracetheWithin

Peace to Your House no. 14

“Peace to your house.”

Some days I don’t feel like I am doing enough because, in spite of all the work I do, I am not constantly busy. And since I am not constantly busy, then I feel like maybe I could be doing more. And that cycle is something I have to struggle against with my brain daily.

I am quite certain that some days are more busy than others. And some days are more exhausting than others. And if I, with the whole plantation and the like, can feel like I am not doing enough, then some of you probably feel the same. BUT it’s alright. That is just those evil spirits out there in play trying to get me insecure and worried. What I need to do is just focus on my peace . . . . And that peace today means surviving an air conditioning unit that is leaking. Using an assortment of beach towels, I am creating a sort of system for mopping and catching the condensation and drying the towels in shifts during a rather hot and humid part of the summer. I am running the air for only eight hours the next two days and every four hours, I trade out a set of towels for another. I was trying to push that limit even further BUT I don’t want to test the limits of my children.

Peace to your home. Bless your being. The reign of God is now. Have the day you want. I hope you find whatever you’re looking for.

#ThinkBetter #BeBetter #NoGodsNoMasters #MyNepheshMyChoice #MakeYourselfGreatAgain #EmbracetheWithin